I have never been the type of person to pretend to have it altogether. I am constantly learning, failing, trying again, apologizing, trying to love unconditionally, messing up, asking for grace, and learning some more. If there is one theme in my life it would “seeking.” Seeking the next thing, seeking love, seeking grace, seeking forgiveness, seeking knowledge, seeking community, seeking acceptance, seeking improvement, and finally seeking perfection. What I am learning though is God doesn’t call us to be perfect.
When I say perfection I mean perfection in my eyes on how I want my life to be. I know that I am unique in the way I live my life, and I am totally fine with it! I am just constantly trying to be the best version of myself that I can be.
Lately though, I have been realizing that this is not a realistic goal. God doesn’t call us to be perfect… He doesn’t call us to be holy… He doesn’t call us to be something we are not… He doesn’t call us to be tired… He doesn’t call us to constantly give.
He simply calls us to seek Him and have a relationship with Him. To stop all the trying to be’s and start living in Him. Living in the moment, and in His presence. Peaceful and humble.
It is so hard to stop thinking this destructive way that I have been thinking for the past 30 years. It is so hard to say “no” to people even if it is the best thing for me. I am learning that it’s okay not to have it altogether, to take time to sit and breathe, to sing a silly song, to fully engage with God throughout the day.
It is a hard realization to come to, and I would lie if I said that once I came to this my life completely changed. It did not, and I am constantly having to STOP and remember the simple promises that God has for me.
I am slowly unlearning what I thought about life before, and being still in the presence of God. Taking time to not only enjoy life, but to hear Gods voice amongst all the chaos that ensues on a daily basis.
I am so grateful that God stopped me in my tracks and opened my eyes to the wonder that He has for my life. The biggest struggle I have is letting go of knowing what is going to happen next. I need to let go of trying to control everything, of striving to be someone I am not. I need to remember that life is one journey that doesn’t have a destination. Instead of thinking, “When I get here I will be ____,” we need to thank God for giving us today. Each of our phases in life are preparing us for the next phase.
Let’s stop today trying to be perfect and remember that God doesn’t call us to be. All He simply calls us to is a relationship with Him. How amazing is that?
Until Next Time,